I. Am. A. Failure.

This word just gets to me. I absolutely hate it. We always hear how other people say failure is a part of success, but in reality, how many of those people succeed in the long run? A handful? A lucky few? All of them? I don't think all of them do--or everyone would reach their goal at some point in their life. In a way, I want someone to tell me it'll be okay. But the word "okay" seems so mediocre to me. Maybe it is just growing up with parents who have had fullfilling careers, who have actually "succeeded". I feel like such a failure when I compare myself to that. I tried so hard to make my own path-- coming to study in a country they both haven't set foot in (trust me that was hard to find), but then realizing that I can't even validate myself in the university here. I knew that it would be hard (every class I have is taught in Chinese) but I never thought that I would actually fail. Granted,  I knew that my grades wouldn't be ideal, but I never thought there would actually come a time when an "F" would be printed on my transcript. Ever, until today. I just can't. Failure, how I hate the taste.

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Comments (3)

  1. donoasis

    Are you a failure?

    June 22, 2016
    1. keepyoureyesopen

      I would like to say no…but I am not sure anymore.

      June 22, 2016
      1. donoasis

        The best thing to do is to see everything as a success. I have been were you are and it sucks.

        June 22, 2016